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Sun, 26 Oct 2003 21:19:15 GMT

I'll be coming home....just to be alone
Cause I know you're not there....and I know you dont care
I can hardly wait....to leave this place

No matter how hard I try, you're never satisied, this is not a home i think im better off alone
You always disapear, even when you're here....i think im better off alone

home........home

this house is not a home......

how true this feels lately

Shut Up

Sun, 26 Oct 2003 08:30:27 GMT

my dad is sick again...he's in the hospital...i dont know if he'll leave this time.

people wanted an update on my life....there you have it. spare me your pity and apathy and just shut up. i dont want it.....if you want to say hi, go ahead...."im sorry" will just be shunnned...remember....i can barely stand myself....let alone you

My car....

Fri, 01 Aug 2003 22:31:01 GMT

Just upgraded a lot of engine work the other day....and guess what i did last night? Caught it on fire....

Yea....the whole inside of my car went up in a blaze of glory with me in it. I got out fine, except for the dent in my wallet getting the inside recarpeted. Note to everyone out there....never...never clean the inside of your car, then spray lysol in it to get out smoke smell. its never a good thing. I did like how people were driving down I-95 looking at me with flames shooting out of my car hosing them down with my extinguisher and didnt stop or say a damn word. hmm........this further proves my theory of.....PEOPLE SUCK

Weird things....

Wed, 23 Jul 2003 21:16:10 GMT

I woke up today really lightheaded and groggy and realized i was laying in a very big puddle of blood. there was about a nice 2 foot long 1 foot wide puddle all over my bed....then i passed out from i guess the lack of blood....no good. Ive finally gotten a little colour back in my face, but im not sure why i was bleeding in my sleep. i had blood stainds on my nose, my mouse, and in the corners of my eyes......if anyone knows what the hell that means then please feel free to inform me. im going to go drink some juice and lay down now....i feel so shitty, its like i have no energy and i just wanna slip into a coma or something

Well I'm all packed up

Mon, 21 Jul 2003 21:19:55 GMT

I'm finally getting the hell out of this city and back down to my apartment. The only bad thing about it is I'm living by myself again...it gets a little lonely. But ah well, I got my digital cable, T3, x-box, and numerous bars to go to. Plus i'll get to see all my old friends again. They said I should be excited because I'm going back down into an 8 to 1 girl to guy ratio environment.....but I'm tired of dating around....I want an actual relationship....a LONG relationship. Ah well.....hopefully something will happen....right now I'm just trying to concentrate on my school work and shit. Finally got my majors and priorities straight.....I refuse to be one of these slackasses who scrounges for a job and lives in and out of jail (jail really sucks...) I have my own place, i have my own car, i have my own job, i have my own schooling.....im going to kick some ass and get a great job after school.....be able to support a wife and kids in the future....all that good stuff. Good times had by all

Ok Ok....Let me rephrase that

Fri, 18 Jul 2003 16:12:35 GMT

As luck may have it, I probably don't like you unless your Heather or Ambyr ;)
<3 you both

As luck may have it...

Fri, 18 Jul 2003 06:36:37 GMT

I probably dont like you

Ambyr

Tue, 15 Jul 2003 22:32:00 GMT

Ambyr is one of my best friends....she is so sweet and caring....and she deserves someone who will treat her like the princess she is. She's going through a tough time right now and I find myself just wishing I could give her a big hug. But I know she'll get through this, she's also one of the strongest girls I've ever had the pleasure of meeting....all I want for her is to be happy. She deserves nothing less.....

Kea <3 Ambyr

Heaver lights my own personal hell <3 Heaver <3

Tue, 15 Jul 2003 22:10:37 GMT

The past few weeks have been insanely busy for me.....Been packing up ll my shit to move, getting ready to buy all new stuff for the new place (studioflat apartment...buy myself....come visit ;) ) and just in general working my ass off doing manual labor just to get a damn buck to have some fun once in awhile.....its kinda taxing. But one good thing came out of all this shit I've had to deal with.....I got really close to one of my good friends from back in the day, Heather. Words can't describe how wonderful this girl is...shes beautiful, sweet, smart....just all around perfect, At least in my eyes......and if you dont think so, I'll make sure your eyes are too bruised and swollen to see out of so you won't have to worry bout it. =D She's just so much fin to talk to and to just...I dunno....enjoy her company. She radiates this happyness about her that just rubs off on anyone. She is great...she's the ray of sunlight I have shining through my own personal hell...

Tue, 17 Jun 2003 22:30:09 GMT

I'm starting to feel a little bit under the weather.....which sucks. I hate getting sick...and probably the fact that I've been going out everynight and drinkin hard doesn't help much either. Last night was worth it though, it was my friends 21st birthday finally and we took her out and got her plastered. I ended up dancing with a stripper at the bar....which was interesting. I don't know how she got behind me exactly but it was.....er...good. Anyways, I'm going to go lay down again and stare at my ceiling for a few hours.....if anyone wants to come over and baby me, thats fine too.